PLAT SENT ME THIS AND ASKED ME TO POST HERE ON HER BEHALF.
really wish i knew what to say....i sit here and bawl my eyes out daily from stress, the unknown and it seems the unknown just gets worse and worse....I'm a severely private person but i guess now is the time to truly bare my soul about what's happened, and what's going on...this is about as real as i can get with everyone right now...and to even let so many know how bad my real life is, honestly devistates me, for the simple fact that i play a woman in here who's strong, together, a good head on her shoulders, knows what she wants, rp's like no other at times, but i have to admit i'm nowhere near the class of rp'er that so many of you are....
But it's true...i have serious doubts now that Mark died...this is the sequence of events regarding this whole situation with Mark...and the more i think about it, the more it turns my stomach....
As most of you know, Mark asked me to marry him back in December...which all of you know i said "yes" to him right away...in the weeks that followed, my real life husband came home to woodbine for 3 days...which caused me massive emotional stress...during that time, the real life godforsaken a$$hole that he is, stopped the payments on the house, stopped the bills, stopped everything, and he's also the same man who kidnapped my kids in July '08....which i'm still to this day fighting to get help with..but that's a whole other post by itself....
When Mark found out D was home, he was scared for me, because i told him D lunged at me and i thought he was going to hit me...which honestly i wouldn't put past my husband if you knew him...i ran from the house, got my mother and all hell broke lose, causing even more stress...
D packed up literally everything belonging to him and my boys and left....left me penniless, without a car, without food and really was nothing new for him since he didn't do anything to support me after he stole my kids....what he left me, were my matresses, my sofa, and got me evicted out of the house we were paying for....i am still in this house by the way, i'm just waiting for the cops to eventually show up and bounce me out of here for trespassing one of these days...
When Mark found all this out, he told me he was coming to get me, and the week he was orginally scheduled to show up, he wound up getting 350 rescue horses in at his ranch...
The following week he did leave with his brother N to come get me...the week of the 12th....
The night of the 14th, Mark had slid off the road and damaged the truck and trailer they were bringing with them....Mark had spend the night in the e.r.
The morning of the 16th, N logged into his own sl account and told me they were both fine and waiting for the truck and trailer to get fixed
I didn't hear from Mark again until the last conversation i had with him on the morning of the 20th, the same morning my phone and dsl were disconnected....Mark told me that morning he was renting a van and coming to get me that day....N had gone back to texas because his son was sick and 5 horses were lost at the ranch, and Mark would be coming alone....a record of that conversation i have if anyone wants to read it.
Mark still had not shown up the morning of the 21st so hoping a shaky wifi signal would work i logged into a message from his cousin to call her at 5 am....at the same time the man courting her now in sl gor would not tell me what was going on...only to call Mychelle....I logged out, ran over to my mother's 6 blocks away and called.....Mark's rl Uncle is the one that told me over the phone that Mark was killed in a car accident.....
Obviously by later in the day all of sl knew what had happened to Mark. So still in shock his family and i start planning the memorial over the next few days...also later on in the day of the 21st, Mychelle his cousin drops a bomb shell on me that Mark has left his ranch to me and my 3 boys...She told me that N's wife L had told her this over the phone and wanted to speak to me personally, not via phone or internet but face to face.
The morning of the 23rd a trucker friend (also in sl) of mine received the word from me about Mark....i have record of that conversation too....He just so happened to be in (where Mark is from) and looked up what he could and found nothing about Mark....the same day a second person, who i won't name, came to me in im's asking me if this was true, verified with me Mark's name and couldn't find anything either, warning me that this could very well be a very elaborate hoax
Obviously by now it's the 24th and i slammed everyone with notices of Mark's sl service, which occured and some of you were there for.
The next day and up until the 29th, i asked Mychelle and her dad daily for word from N, L, or his mother...having given her my mother's phone number to contact me at and the address of my house where i am now. I still have yet to hear anything from Mark's family....I have asked repeatedly for N's number, Mark's mom's number and all Mychelle will tell me is she won't give them out without their permission...I find this hard to believe since i'm told over and over that i'm part of the family.
I finally completely lost it with Mychelle on the night of the 29th, cleared out the wagon i had shared with Mark at Gold Bosk and told her i will not return until i hear from N, L or Mark's mom....i have record of that conversation too
I still sit here, with nothing to go on....I don't have N's number, Mark's mother's number, the number of Mark's lawyer, the name of the ranch, the addres, the number to call there. I am literally sick over all of this and i really really don't know what to do anymore...I'm completely lost and broken at the moment from stress, worry and now my gut tells me there is something seriously wrong with this entire situation with Mark. I cannot fathom taking this long to do an autopsy in Oklahoma, so i've been told it's a state law for them involving car accidents. I honestly have no answers to anything and his family will not tell me anything.
There is more than just one person coming to me daily telling me that there is nothing anyone can find on Mark, his death or anything involving him.
All i can come up with are scenarios to what might have happened...and none of them good...
scenario 1....Mark did get killed in that accident and his family wants nothing to do with me, which i can't understand why if Mark's final wishes are to be looked after.
scenario 2...Mark survived that accident and is in a hospital somewhere still alive....either his family won't tell me or they won't let him contact me
scenario 3...there's more to the accident that what i'm being told and the autopsy is really taking this long, but that for me is so far out in left field it's out of the ball park so to speak
I'm at a loss right now, i really do not know what i can do now, i don't know what to think anymore...I'm as close to cracking for good over Mark, my situation with my house, my bills, my kids, all of it...I struggle everyday to maintain my sanity and it's getting harder and harder by the moment....I wish i could be the strong Plat i play in here but I've been damaged badly and not sure how long it will take me to recover, if i recover at all.
It really does bring tears to my eyes that so many of you care about me, i truly don't know what i would do without all of you, and i mean it from the depths of my heart, ALL of you are real friends to me, real people....I wake up daily forcing myself to go on because my friends, all of you, count on me in some sort of way, right now, that's all i have to keep me going honestly...i know it must sound lame to a lot of you but it's true....All of you help me to maintain my sanity more than you could ever realize.
Love you all so much, Lori (Plat)
p.s....yes Arthor, i am cranky slaver, and probably will be for some time to come

(needed to add a funny, cause i cry too much as it is)
and an added sidetrack to all of this....i've recently found out that a friend of mine who was yearkeeper to Gold Bosk, was banned, ejected and all her stuff return because I said i would not return until I spoke to N, L or Mark's mom....tell me how fair that is to do to someone...
friends, lori